I came across your post on Pikachu's wall. As a fellow EC fan, I would recommend you to reconsider your choice of suicide.
I want to make myself clear that it's not wrong to have those thoughts because I think it's the surrounding environment that makes you feel that way. Your feeling are sincere and you don't have to feel bad for having your feeling right now. You can use suicide hotline. You can chat with me or anyone on EC too. Keep yourself in a calm state.
I just want you to know that your suicidal thoughts are temporary. I only have vague knowledge of your situation but if you need someone to let out your feelings, you can talk with me. Or you can use the hotlines. Or if you're not up to talking, there are chat lines too.
Tell me where you live and I can look up the hotlines for you.