The Portrait Glassred Drew

"If only you hadn't changed."

―Gumina Glassred^[src]

The Portrait Glassred Drew is a song released by Akuno-P on January 31, 2015. It concerns Gumina Glassred following the Venomania Event, reflecting on her past as she draws the face of Duke Sateriasis Venomania.

Plot[]

Sometime after the Venomania Event, Gumina Glassred paints the face of a man she can't see again on her blank canvas. She ruminates on how their story could have ended differently if he had stayed as he was, but acknowledges that the person in her picture is already gone. She continues to paint the man's face until his portraits fills her room, admitting that she had wanted the true him, even if they both didn't realize it.

Gumina recalls how the man had burnt his past portrait, and how he had changed after she foolishly made fun of him. She notes how she had believed it would be okay regardless, as long as he was happy; she says that while change isn't bad, what he really needed was to accept his unchanged self too. As she paints, Gumina remarks that he still lives through her painting and that she had already known what he was trying to say in the end. Acknowledging that she really had liked him, Gumina fills the room with memories of her lost friend, shedding a tear at the fact neither of them realized they wanted to love the real him. At the end of the PV, the purple rose she wore is shown left on a new, blank canvas.

Lyrics[]

もしも変わらなければ

キャンバスの上へ筆を走らせ
あの人の絵を描いた

思い出の隅にあるこの顔には
もう会えない
ずっと

変わってしまったのは
いつからだっただろうか
あなたがあなたのままなら
違う結末だったかも
なんて　今さらだね

——絵の中の君はもういない

君の顔が好きだったわけじゃない
それでもずっと描き続けた
いつしか部屋は君の似顔絵で満たされた

求めたのは君の顔じゃない
ありのままの本当の君
だけどね　君も私もその事に
気づけなかった

燃やされた肖像画
「この顔は嫌いだ」と君は言った

本当に醜かったのは
君の顔じゃなく
きっと⋯⋯

浅はかな考えで
君の事馬鹿にした
次に会った時あなたは
違う人になっていた
そう　まるで別人だった

——絵の中の君はもういない

たとえ君が思い出の記憶と
違ったとしても　幸せならば
それでもいいのかもしれないと思ってた

変わることが悪いわけじゃない
でも本当に必要なのは
変われない自分も受け入れるという事
気づけなかった

君は生き続ける
私の描いた絵の中で
それがたとえ君の望んでた
姿ではないとしても

そう　君があの時
最後に言おうとしていた言葉
それが何だかはわかってる
ずっと前から知ってた

君の事が好きだったかもしれない
だからずっと描き続けた
いつしか部屋は君の思い出で満たされた

求めたのは君の顔じゃない
ありのままの本当の君
だけどね　君も私もその事に
気づけなかった

Moshimo kawaranakereba

KYANBASU no ue fude wo hashirase
Ano hito no e wo egaita

Omoide no sumi ni aru kono kao ni wa
Mou aenai
Zutto

Kawatte shimatta no wa
Itsu kara datta darou ka
Anata ga anata no mama nara
Chigau ketsumatsu datta kamo
Nante imasara da ne

——E no naka no kimi wa mou inai

Kimi no kao ga suki datta wake ja nai
Soredemo zutto egakitsuzuketa
Itsushika heya wa kimi no nigaoe de mitasareta

Motometa no wa kimi no kao ja nai
Arinomama no hontou no kimi
Dakedo ne kimi mo watashi mo sono koto ni
Kizukenakatta

Moyasareta shouzouga
"Kono kao wa kirai da" to kimi wa itta

Hontou ni minikukatta no wa
Kimi no kao ja naku
Kitto …

Asahaka na kangae de
Kimi no koto baka ni shita
Tsugi ni atta toki anata wa
Chigau hito ni natte ita
Sou marude betsujin datta

——E no naka no kimi wa mou inai

Tatoe kimi ga omoide no kioku to
Chigatta to shite mo shiawase naraba
Soredemo ii no kamo shirenai to omotteta

Kawaru koto ga warui wake ja nai
Demo hontou ni hitsuyou na no wa
Kawarenai jibun mo ukeireru to iu koto
Kizukenakatta

Kimi wa ikitsuzukeru
Watashi no kaita e no naka de
Sore ga tatoe kimi no nozondeta
Sugata de wa nai to shite mo

Sou kimi ga ano toki
Saigo ni iou to shite ita kotoba
Sore ga nan da ka wa wakatteru
Zutto mae kara shitteta

Kimi no koto ga suki datta kamo shirenai
Dakara zutto egakitsuzuketa
Itsushika heya wa kimi no omoide de mitasareta

Motometa no wa kimi no kao ja nai
Arinomama no hontou no kimi
Dakedo ne kimi mo watashi mo sono koto ni
Kizukenakatta

If only you hadn’t changed

Running my brush onto the canvas
I painted a picture of him
All along I can’t meet with
This face in the corner of my memory anymore

Since when was it that
It had completely changed?
If you had been the way you were
Maybe this would have had a different conclusion
That’s too late by now, huh?
–The you in the picture isn’t around anymore

It’s not that I liked your face
And yet this whole time I’ve continued painting
Before I knew it, this room was filled with your likeness

What I sought wasn’t your face
But the real you as you were
But hey, neither you nor I
Was able to realize that

That burnt portrait
You said “I hate this face”
What was truly disgusting
Wasn’t your face, surely…

With a foolish idea
I made fun of you
The next time I met you
You had become a different person
Yes, you were just like someone else
–The you in the picture isn’t around anymore

Even if you were different from
What I remembered, if you were happy
I had thought perhaps it was okay, even so

It’s not that changing is bad
But what you really needed
Was to accept yourself without changing, too
But you couldn’t realize that

You continue to live
In these pictures I painted
Even if it’s not the appearance
You had wished for
Yes, back then,
Those words you were trying to say in the end
Somehow I know what they were
I had known from long ago

Perhaps I did like you
So this whole time I’ve continued painting
Before I knew it, this room was filled with memories of you

What I sought wasn’t your face
But the real you as you were
But hey, neither you nor I
Was able to realize that

English translation by Pricechecktranslations

Related Songs[]

The Lunacy of Duke Venomania[]

The song is set a year after the end of the Venomania Event portrayed in The Lunacy of Duke Venomania, with Gumina reflecting on her experiences with Sateriasis while brainwashed as a member of his harem.

Albums[]

Appearances[]

Cherubim Venomania (appears in portrait)
Gumina Glassred
Sateriasis Venomania (indirect mention only)

Venomania Event (appears in flashback(s))

Five Dukes (appears in PV)
Glassred Family
Levin
Venomania Family (appears in PV)

Humans

Trivia[]

Conceptualization and Origin[]

The song's title is derived from its central character, Gumina Glassred, and the portraits she makes of Cherubim.
While commenting on the song, mothy cited that, while he didn't understand the psychology of a woman, being a man, he tried hard to do so, wanting to tell the story from the perspective of a "normal person".^[1]