- "Left all alone, I little by little quietly start to go mad"
- ―Nemesis Sudou[src]
And Then the Girl Went Mad -Ending Tale on a Moonlit Night- is a song released by Akuno-P on August 17, 2014 in The Muzzle of Nemesis album. It portrays the slow descent into madness for Nemesis Sudou as she is left abandoned.
Plot
In the Millennium Tree Forest, a young girl waits for her mother to return as the light fades, wondering if she is still sane as she stays locked in the house. She hears two voices whisper that she’s been abandoned, although she insists it’s not the same before coming to accept it herself. Trapped in the dark house, the girl slowly goes insane, forgetting her other feelings and becoming filled with wrath. As time goes on, the girl is eventually unable to sleep for fear of waking up alone and shouts for the door to be unlocked. Hearing only the twins’ resounding voices, the girl wonders in time if this was what her mother wanted.
Lyrics
光源の陰 消え去りし面影に
怯えながら 母の帰りを待つ
晴天を避け 小屋に篭る私は
果たしてまだ 正気なのでしょうか
「置き去りね」「置き去りだ」
誰かが囁いた
違うわよ
私は見捨てられてなんか
いないんだからね
一人ぼっち残された私は
静に少しずつ狂い始める
お月さまのわずかな光では
私を照らせない
一人ぼっち残された私は
笑顔も涙も忘れ始めている
唯一残された感情は
溢れ出る憤怒
目覚めた時に いつも一人きりなの
それが怖くて 私は眠れない
闇に覆われ 塗りつぶされたような
部屋で一人 私は震えてる
鍵を開けて 鍵を開けて
何度叫んでも
願いは かなわない
見えぬ双子の声だけが
響いてる
一人ぼっち残された私は
静に少しずつ狂い始める
あるいはそれこそがお母さんの
望みかもしれない
一人ぼっち残された私は
笑顔も涙も忘れ始めている
唯一残された感情は
溢れ出る憤怒
Kougen no kage kiesarishi omokage ni
Obie nagara haha no kaeri wo matsu
Seiten wo sake koya ni komoru watashi wa
Hatashite mada shouki na no deshou ka
“Okizari ne” “Okizari da”
Dareka ga sasayaita
Chigau wa yo
Watashi wa misuterarete nanka
Inai n dakara ne
Hitoribocchi nokosareta watashi wa
Shizuka ni sukoshi zutsu kurui hajimeru
Otsukisama no wazuka na hikari de wa
Watashi wo terasenai
Hitoribocchi nokosareta watashi wa
Egao mo namida mo wasure hajimeteiru
Yuitsu nokosareta kanjou wa
Afurederu funnu
Mezameta toki ni itsumo hitori kiri na no
Sore ga kowakute watashi wa nemurenai
Yami ni ooware nuritsubusareta you na
Heya de hitori watashi wa furueteru
Kagi wo akete kagi wo akete
Nando sakendemo
Negai wa kanawanai
Mienu futago no koe dake ga
Hibiiteru
Hitori bocchi nokosareta watashi wa
Shizuka ni sukoshi zutsu kurui hajimeru
Arui wa sorekoso ga okaasan no
Nozomi kamoshirenai
Hitori bocchi nokosareta watashi wa
Egao mo namida mo wasure hajimeteiru
Yuitsu nokosareta kanjou wa
Afurederu funnu
Shadows of the light; while becoming afraid
Inside their vanishing traces, I wait for my mother’s return
Avoiding fine weather, while secluded in this hut
Am I really still sane?
“Abandoned, huh?” “You’re abandoned”
Someone whispered
You’re wrong
Because something like being deserted
Can’t be happening to me, right?
Left all alone, I
Little by little quietly start to go mad
By the spare light of the great moon
I can’t be illuminated
Left all alone, I
Am beginning to forget both smiles and tears
The sole feeling left behind
Is overflowing wrath
When I awoke, I was always on my own
It’s so frightening I can’t sleep
In this room that’s covered in darkness as though painted out
I tremble alone
Unlock the door, unlock the door
No matter how many times I shout
That plea isn’t granted
Only the invisible twins’ voices
Resound
Left all alone, I
Little by little quietly start to go mad
Or maybe this really is
What my mother wants
Left all alone, I
Am beginning to forget both smiles and tears
The sole feeling left behind
Is overflowing wrath
English translation by Pricechecktranslations
Related Songs
Tale of Abandonment on a Moonlit Night
Tale of Abandonment on a Moonlit Night shares the same themes of moonlight, insanity, and parental abandonment in And Then the Girl Went Mad -Ending Tale on a Moonlit Night-, as well as featuring the twins, Hänsel and Gretel, whom Nemesis hears reminding her of being abandoned.
The Last Revolver
The Last Revolver details Nemesis' life following And Then the Girl Went Mad -Ending Tale on a Moonlit Night-, showing her emotionless side as an assassin as well as her rediscovery of the happiness and sadness that she had forgotten.
The Muzzle of Nemesis
The Muzzle of Nemesis is a continuation of Nemesis' life following And Then the Girl Went Mad -Ending Tale on a Moonlit Night-, alluding to the home that she had been imprisoned in and her absent mother.
Albums
Appearances
Trivia
Conceptualization and Origin
- The song's title refers to Nemesis' growing madness, as well as the result of her "abandonment"; interestingly, it parallels the theme of abandonment seen in Tale of Abandonment on a Moonlit Night.
Curiosities
- Towards the climax of The Muzzle of Nemesis PV, the screen flashes phrases and images related to other songs, including "And Then the Girl Went Mad" and the "abandoned" lyrics sung by Hänsel and Gretel in the song.